Am I speaking English?

I'm finding more and more myself in situations where, I am having to utilize the word no, a lot. I guess being known as having a soft heart is not such a bad thing, it only becomes a problem when people think it's an open door to try and take advantage. Hey girl can you handle this for me? Or hey do you think you can do this for me like right now, thanks your the greatest. Or what about the friends who you never hear from and only call when they require your assistance. "You know I've been thinking about you, I've just been so busy but any way I'm calling now, I need a favor. Are you serious? I mean come on people I'm saved, not a sucker! I don't mind helping out but if I find out the sole reason for our friendship is what I can do for you, then your friendship is no longer desired. Good grief! But what really burns my buttons is when I say no and people respond as though I never said anything at all. As if to say, "Surely that no does not apply to me!" Here's a news flash, from now on, no applies to you, your mama and anybody else in your family who is looking to suck me dry. I'm tired go bug somebody else!

It's so hard to say goodbye...

Here I am dodging calls from a guy who just two weeks ago I couldn't seem to get enough of. It's not that I'm finicky or uppity but excuse me for wanting a man who only wants me. Maybe it's arrogance talking, but I like the idea of being the only one. I like the idea that when he leaves a date with me he won't be heading out on his third one for the day. I like the idea that I'm enough. So I find myself missing the idea of him, I miss having a man to talk to and laugh with. To cuddle and even to kiss. But I don't miss having to share one. Lately, the Holy Spirit has been revealing all the counterfeit brothers who seem to be drifting into my peaceful waters, causing waves and drowning my dreams with their shenanigans. Ahh, to be in a relationship with a monogamous man! Wouldn't that be something? I know their out there but I aint looking for them. I think I'll just wait and let them look for me for a change.

Praying or Preying

Since I've started the blog I find that I don't have to go far to find things to write about. Like for instance recently I found myself in a situation where someone asked for prayer and instead of going directly into prayer I started asking what was wrong, what happened and other things that had nothing to do with me praying and everything with me preying. Simply put I was just being nosy. Yes I was concerned for my friend but did I really need to know what the prayer was for? I mean come on, it's not like God didn't know what the situation was I just felt I had a right to know. I felt I had a right to know because I was offering MY prayers. Wow in written form it seems worse than it did in my head when I thought it! How selfish! Would I have honestly with held my prayers if I didn't get the "whole scoop"? One woman's scoop is another person's struggle and I was absolutely wrong in insisting on hearing the where and why's of it all in order to submit and pray for some one who reached out to me asking if I would go before the most High God on their behalf. In stead of counting it as the honor and privileged it was, I treated it as though it was my right.
Psalm 18:27
You save the humble but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.

Once the Lord opened my eyes to what I was doing boy did I ever feel humble and so hurt that I'd made the choice to meddle rather than minister. It is our job as servants of the most High God and joint-heirs with Christ to always be in a humble position of readiness so that we can be used by God to bless others. It is my sincere prayer that when others come to us that we will make every effort to go right into praying and not preying. In the end, not only will they be blessed but we will have allowed God to make us a blessing.

Wonder Woman or Weak Woman

So lately I've been sharing how I met this great guy and how awesome he is. Now I find out that although he is not in a relationship he is having relations, with different women. Ok, after I pick my jaw up off the floor I begin to pray I ask God what is the deal with all the unavailable men who are presenting themselves as available and they seem to only be presenting themselves to me. As I'm pondering this dilemma I get a call from my sister. We talk on a regular basis so a call from her is no big thing except she begins to ask me questions about the guy. I answer all the questions and she says, I don't know why I'm getting in my Spirit that he runs women. I'm thinking you know what Holy Spirit I really don't need this right now. She goes on to tell me that I have to be like wonder woman with the bracelets and learn to deflect the counterfeit men bullets that are trying to keep me from my destiny. She said don't you wonder why they are coming back to back to back? And I'm like yeah, she says it's because Satan knows your destiny is close and in order to keep you from getting to it he's sending these men into your path to distract you and to turn your focus. Ok, so on one hand I'm excited that I'm close to the promise on the other hand I'm thinking, do I have to go into it alone? Now mind you I'm thinking this not out loud but to myself. So my sister says, I know you are thinking why do I have to do this alone? Well you may have to go to the place God is leading you into alone but you won't be lonely and you won't be alone always. When the man God has for you comes he will love you unconditionally just as Christ loves you. So we talk some more then we hang up. I get another call this time from this guy that I really liked at one time but he was, "yep you guessed it" unavailable. He begins to share somethings, says I was on his mind and then asked me how things were going? I said they are going and he asks me what's wrong I tell him I keep meeting the wrong men. Do you know what this guy said? He said the guy your with may not be pressuring you for sex, maybe smooth and says all the right things because he knows that sex is the farthest thing from your mind, what he is doing is making you comfortable so that when he does make his move there will be no resistance from you. You have to gird yourself up and be prepared not to fall for those tricks. Now ain't this something the trickster teaching me how not to fall for tricks. All I can say at this point is, I'm tired and I have now checked my box...unavailable and not interested. Not accepting any applications at this time.