Yet I Hold On

If I should understand what it is that you have given to me
In my life then maybe, just maybe I could move on
I keep searching for words, phrases and meanings that will make sense of it all
Why would I continue to hold on to someone who has yet to offer any form of commitment Verbal or written Not even your body language suggests a hint of something
Yet I hold on Seeing what is not there to be seen
Believing what has never been there to have faith in
Yet I hold on Tightening my grasp as though if I hold on more
This will in turn make you turn and perhaps, just perhaps
Possibly hold on to me as well Yet I hold on
To empty nothing of wistfulness Forsaking all for brief moments of perceived ecstasy
Knowing deep within my muddled thoughts that This fantasy is nothing more than that Fantasy And I am merely a dreamer caught in a dream of my own making
Yet I hold on Suspended within and without
Craving the UN appetizing results of unfruitful-ness
Yet I hold on Seeking that which will never be found
It is and has always been and will forever more be
Your love